Introduction: Welcome to my first blog post! I’m here to help you to find your inner genius. No matter where you are in life, I am hoping that you will find some type of growth in my weekly blog. Let it be known that knowledge is power. I hope that I can offer you some education to inspire you to create a healthy lifestyle and unlock your full potential. Remember, mindset is everything. Embrace failure as a valuable learning opportunity. Don’t be afraid to take risks, try new things, and even make mistakes. Each failure brings you one step closer to finding a solution. In our fast paced world, it is important to love yourself and grasp moments of peace and solitude so you can learn how to LOVE BETTER!
I want to share a little bit about myself and what led me onto this journey. Guess everyone really has a story!
My first notes for this blog were written in a book on 9/21/2023 but I felt compelled to include it in my first blog. I was leaving for a Tranont Conference with my husband; yet, I felt like I was following a path to the unknown. Even though I felt unsure about where this was leading me I continued to follow my heart. For one year, I had been lost, confused and broken as I tried to overcome my mother’s death. Many days I did not know where I was;nor, how I was going to survive this terrible road ahead. The only thing I knew was that I loved her with all of my heart and I would have to learn how to survive. I had to help my dad survive too! She is forever in my heart.
About 3 years ago, I was encouraged by my nephew to begin a journal. I purchased a beautiful pink leather journal but only wrote in it once. As I was leaving for Las Vegas, I felt compelled to journal on this trip. While sitting on the plane, I saw the beautiful sky and pulled out my journal, As soon as I pulled out the book, my heart was pounding in my chest. This “racing heart” was the same feeling I had the night she died! Some people call it anxiety but I felt like I was dying because it hurt so much. I tried to calm myself down but tears just fell, The journal cover it read, “She is clothed in strength and dignity and she laughs without fear of the future” Proverbs 31:25. Could this be my mom talking to me? As I pulled out the book, an antique key attached to a leather strap on the book feel into my lap. My heart dropped as I thought to myself, “Is this the key to unlock my destiny?” As I opened the book a page was marked by another leather strap with a metal tag that read “God will be with you wherever you will go” Joshua 1:1. Yet, another sign from mom, I thought to myself.
At times, all of these signs were very overwhelming because it felt like yesterday that she was here now she was gone. I told myself I had to be strong; yet, I was weak. My mom knew my passion was to change or positively impact people’s lives as a nurse but I could never find the right path until now. Many days, I continue to ask WHY but now I know WHY! It’s not in my control. My close family and friends who know me can also attest that I have always had to be in control. Some people say “Women like to be in control.” Right?…. Wrong!
God has control and he is the driver and we are just the passenger. Litterally, just a co-pilot. At the age of 52, I finally understand. Maybe, I am a just a slow learner but that is OK…I am teachable! I never dreamed of the day that my mom would speak to me without hearing her. She had the kindest , sweetest voice but for one year I could not hear it. Some people told me it was because I was blocking it because it was hurting too much. As a devoted daughter, it was hard to grasp the simple idea that a big part of me was now gone in a physical state. I would soon come to realize that I know she was with me in a spirital state instead.
I am closing this blog today to pray silently for a close family friend as they have now lost a loving parent also.
Pure Balance 
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